On Your Radar

Merry Christmas – Here’s Some Gifts for You December 27, 2009

Though Christmas is not really a feast of gifts the way we celebrate it now, gifts were actually involved. The three kings came and brought gifts. Unfortunately my religious knowledge does not extend much further so I will refrain from saying anything else that might be wrong.

This Christmas I got several gifts. Some were actual gifts, some weren’t really gifts and were nice, some weren’t gifts and weren’t nice. It all started very early on Christmas morning with a dream.

I dreamt that my ex-boyfriend and I were still living together though we weren’t a couple anymore. Our daily patterns were thus scheduled that we didn’t see each other really. But one day I saw him struggle to wrap Christmas presents using glue and I looked at him and he looked up at me and his face expressed a deep unhappiness and some guilt, it was horrible. Then another day, my sister and mum were there, he came to me and said that if I ever wanted to use leather straps in our bed with someone else that would be fine. I immediately saw through this and asked him if this was because he had found someone else to do this with. I was right and I quizzed him about her. I was so upset and angry that I tried to hit him and slap his face but I had my usual dream-strength, which is close to zero. In the end I told him that as long as we lived under one roof no one would be doing anything with anyone else in our bed. I awoke after this and couldn’t sleep for several hours worrying about his wellbeing. Nice gift I thought to myself.

The second gift wasn’t really a gift either but it was nice. We had a white Christmas, which is something that I have never seen in my life. Though it wasn’t as special as one would hope. The snow had been there for days and simply remained for Christmas day. Of course it would have been more special if there wasn’t any snow to begin with and then it would have snowed over night. But nevertheless it was white.

Finally later that evening I got some real gifts. I like receiving gifts, it’s nice. Who doesn’t like receiving gifts? But what I like even better is giving gifts. And I have to say I indeed brought more presents with me then I am bringing back. I love seeing people’s faces when they unwrap presents and the warmth with which they thank you. That for me itself is a present and what Christmas is all about.