Koko Again December 12, 2009
Posted by littlebeadle in Broken Hearted.Tags: cute, going out, good food, Koko london, love, skirt
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I’ve had probably had the best Saturday in weeks, maybe even months. I lazed in bed, went for a run, went to yoga class, did shopping and had the best lunch in a long time.
Lunch consisted of a salad with green leaves, tomato, avocado and roasted pine nuts with a dressing of olive oil with a hint of pesto. I had two sundried tomato and basil rolls, two soft-boiled eggs and some asparagus. It was actually more like breakfast, lunch and dinner in one because all I had eaten up until that point was an apple.
Tonight I will be going to Koko again, unless we end up somewhere else. It’s funny how now that I am single again I’m a much more sociable person. I don’t know why I did not do these things before and of course I can’t help but wonder what things would have been like if I did do these things more when we were still together.
It’s not like I am going out now to meet new guys. I am not at all ready for someone else and at this point don’t even want someone else. Again, I wish he could see me. I’m clad in my home-hand-made mini skirt with little heart shaped buttons on it. I wore it once when we were still together and I know he would have liked to see me wear it more. It’s strange how I feel that I’ve become someone I think he would’ve liked even better now that we’re apart.
I haven’t become this person to win him back. I know there is no winning him back. If it so happens that we get back together again it will not be due to a contest. I can only be myself. I cannot influence him into loving me again. I’ve become this new person to make me feel good about myself, because I am the only one I have at this moment.
